"Black Cloud" is the second track from Allie X's second album, Ladies and Gentlemen, released under the name "Allie Hughes".
Lyrics[]
Do you two talk about me a lot?
Since I won't talk to you
I guess you have to talk to each other
Must be hard having one daughter with issues
When the other two have perfect temperaments
Am I the black cloud
Of this good Canadian hard work home?
Am I too sad?
Do I stay in bed too long?
When you go in my room, what are you looking for?
Some clue as to where I stand?
"Maybe she has a boyfriend"
You try so hard for me to find you
But I can't see you, I can't see at all
Am I the black cloud
Of this good Canadian hard work home?
Am I too sad?
Am I not sociable?
And when you hear my songs, do you hear them at all?
When you listen to them, do you know what I'm singing?
I know you like the ones with the catchy tunes
What about the ones about you?
And when I look like this, can you see me in you?
When I'm so hostile and you don't know why
And I say "I don't need anybody"
You try so hard for me to find you
But I can't see you, I can't see you at all
Because I'm the black sheep
Of this good Canadian family
And I'm hard to keep from screaming, yeah
And I'm the black cloud
And I take on all the darkness
Of our home so you can be happy
I'm all that you wanted
I swear that's the truth
One day I hope to do the same
But not now
I don't know how
I don't know how
I don't know how